My Suicide Note.

I've been thinking about this video I made over a year ago. It's the video that really helped me through a really though time in my life. I lost almost everything and moved to a place I never wanted to go to. I guess I want to show people where I was at when I wrote this video.

I felt like I was in the darkest moment in my life and felt useless to everyone around me, I wanted to feel useless. I've given up in many ways and the only thing I really did was read the Dexter books and listen to the audio books. Every thought of Dexter didn't help me move on since my ex showed me Dexter.

This video was a suicide note to all my friends and family. That was my first intention for the video and everything changed when I finished it. The video didn't take long at all to make and it was really second nature to me.

After I finished the video I felt extremely excited and giddy. I made a master piece, a master piece of darkness. I loved it and I loved the feeling. I felt like I made the best thing ever and one of the darkest things ever. I reminded myself why I loved life so much, I wanted to create things like this. I want to make things for people to relate to and to know that everything is ok. It helped me so much to finally get this off my chest. The feeling was so powerful that I wanted to make more and more.

I wanted to stay around and make things.

Now, I'm in Maryland working at American Eagle and Hot Topic making videos, music and art work. I've met more great friends that I call family and I have a great girlfriend that thinks about me day and night. I'm making money and I've regained all the things I sold off and more. I'm very happy and I'm happy a lot. I have the best roommate slash best friend and a girlfriend that is always there for me through really tough times. I have had some rough trials and I got through them with out forgetting why I want to live.

I want to create stuff and I am.

Rub a Dub Dubstep.

Remember how I've been working on this Dubstep song. Well, here is a short demo of what it is going to sound like. Mainly I need to show my boss at Hot Topic what it sounds like and see what he thinks about it.

The Music Gods (Demo)

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Time & Trash.

A few months ago I drew this...

and I thought it was trash. Until today, I was looking from some art work I did and was randomly opening files because I name some of my .PSD (Photoshop Files) weird names. I opened up this and I was like oh I remember that piece. I think is cool now where before, when I drew it I really didn't like it. Time changes a lot of things, even the things you do and don't like.

Learning New Things From The GF.

Kial has been doing these really cute watercolour drawings that I've been really enjoying. She's really good at this kind of graphic design. She would draw these cute characters and place them in front of these coloured boxes. So I wanted to draw something like that in tribute that my girlfriend can do some awesome art work.

<3

Kid Art.

So, I was looking at some art work from this weirsome band. Weird + Awesome = Weirsome. Anyways, the band is called Kable and my mom gave me the album 3. I really love this album. Here is a link to the art work I saw. It reminded me of some of the art work I used to draw when I was really young.

I made up this character that didn't have a name but his eyes were always flying out. There were a lot of different versions of this guy. Sometimes he had hair and ears and sometimes he was a skull. I've always enjoyed this character, but it has been forever since I drew him. So here is the new and improved Flying Eyes Dude.

Also, sometimes it would have fire behind his eyes and sometimes it didn't. Btw, I was around 5 when I drew him. Don't judge me, I know I'm weird...or should I say Weirsome. Haha!

The Begining of Dance Music.

I haven't been able to blog lately because of two things. I've been editing the music video for Daniel G. Harmann & The Trouble Starts and also I've been working on a Live DubStep Show.

Hot Topic has these events where bands play at the stores, since Hot Topic is all about the music, *cough cough*. Anyways, I have to write a 20 to 30 minutes piece to promote the store and myself.

Since I can't sing and couldn't get a band, I decided to write a DubStep Show. I can record everything, but I don't have a DJ kit of any sort, I'm making a video to go along with the show.

Here are two drawings that will be in a cute slideshow in the show.

Once upon a time, there grew a village.

The Village people were sad for there were no music.

Star.

As I told you in my last post, I was working on a video for that Daniel G. Harmann & The Trouble Starts band. Well, The video is now up on their YouTube Channel. I'm so proud of myself.

Anyways, heres the video that I edited.

I loved editing it and I'm so happy that Jeremiah finally got me to do something for him. We have been trying to get together and work on something for like ages and finally i get called on to do this project and I apparently everyone was blown away by it. So now, Jeremiah and I are this awesome team.

Also, check out their album Rise, you can buy it on itunes. Daniel G. Harmann & The Trouble Starts, I bought it and I really love it. I've always really enjoyed this kind of style.

I hope this will get me into the music biz. I really want to edit more and shot with Jeremiah. I hope this comes through in a great way.

<3

The Trouble Starts.

So, I've been editing this music video for my friend Jeremiah. He knows a lot of people from Seattle and he is doing a music video for this band called Daniel G. Harmenn & The Trouble Starts. I've really gotten into their music and he showed me this video of theirs and I've fallen in love with it. It makes me tear up. I just love the music, the video and the style of the art. I will soon post the video I edited for them, but for now, you get this awesome music video by them.